10/29
10/29
Back to normal! Easy, breezy, beautiful day.
Just Devin tonight. Felt too weird about doing others. Probably taking the next few days off.
Still a good day.
It’s actually pretty weird to be a camgirl while you go through the final stages of deconstructing your Christianity. Not too weird after, but while you’re going through it…whew.
I think I’m in the after now.
I always idolized the prostitutes (sex workers?) of Christianity. Bathsheba was the most beautiful illustration in my picture bible. She wasn’t a sex worker, but she was HOT. Her whole damn thing was being hot.
I used to get off to Christian romance books. “Redeeming Love” was my favorite. It was about a prostitute. Sex worker. At the end of the book she strips naked while walking towards him across a field.
j e s u s .
I know/knew it’s to showcase her new vulnerability, but it mostly just felt hot to me.