10/31
Talked to the guy who was My First Kiss today. Our old mutual friend had a messy divorce and he wanted to know what I knew about it. (I knew everything. She deleted pictures of her husband like a year ago..)
My first kiss was 17ish years ago. It took me 10 years to get over him. I don’t think he ever liked me. He kinda sucks for lots of reasons. Covid did me in. My decade-long crush was shattered with an instagram post.
I just can’t have a crush on an anti-vaxxer. Other things SHOULD HAVE done it for me, but I guess that was the line.
Loser.
I still think about the sound of him kissing my cheek. It was like a week before we kissed on the lips. He kissed my cheek, and I barely felt it..I heard it though. Soft. Quiet. I remember it in a way that if you could download my brain you could just play it.
Taking to him feels like looking into a window of the life I rejected. Bittersweet. Mostly sweet.
Delicious.